Today you showed up late to your house dressed in black from head to toe, handsome as ever. You hugged me goodbye and i began singing your song as i went out the door not realizing you were following behind. I hope you thought it was cute/had good thoughts towards me because of it. I hope i get to talk to you tomorrow.
Today i hugged you on my tippy toes and then you picked me up so effortlessly and my natural instinct was to wrap my legs around your waist and i was like oh shit and i then i released myself and you laughed and said Marilyn you’re wild and we carried on like nothing happened. I loved that you listened so intently to everything I said, and that when i brought up that i wanted to get my buccal fat removed you said i didn’t need it and to not to do it. I wish i could see you every day.
Can i please stop feeling unworthy of love thanks
Yesterday was your brothers birthday and we went out to celebrate, i wish i was able to sit next to you but you arrived late so it didn’t happen. Anyway after dinner we all stood outside the restaurant. I had my hands full so i went to drop off my stuff in the car so i could have my hands free to hug you 😅 anyway on my way back everyone had left and it was just you talking to a girl Who’s around 17/18 and i was immediately sad. i told my sister to quickly come with me to talk to yall so that it wouldn’t just be the two of you. Luckily by the time we were walking over, your brother had also come out and then shortly after my brother had also come out. I kept waiting for her to leave but she just stood there shyly/quietly. At some point you even defended her bc we were all joking about our body aches as the rest of us were all 25+ in age. “Stop, yall are going to scare Amanda.” Then you turned to look at her and say “it’s going to be okay.” Hearing you say her name was crushing. It was hard to control my expression, hopefully i didn’t give away how much it bothered me. Once we all said our final goodbyes, she walked towards the same direction you had and i didn’t dare keep looking bc i didn’t want to know whether you were going to walk to her car. Once I was home i felt so guilty and ashamed for acting so petty and immature. I have no right over you. You’re not mine. I shouldn’t intervene. You have every right to talk to anyone you please. I have always known that it could never be me. But it’s so hard to let go. I wish i could stop wanting you for myself. Besides, except for that fact thats she’s significantly younger than you, she’s a really pretty and kind girl. I cant blame you for liking her.
Today i gave into my impulsive thoughts and messaged yall, both conversations were blunt. A good reminder that i should never be the one to initiate the conversation anyway
We have a fair trip planned with our ya group and i wish i could message u to see if you were coming 😭
On sunday the 1st of October i was slightly jealous bc my friend got to work with you and you had to train/explain things to her and all i could think is i wish that were me and a slight worry ran through me out of fear that you might develop or have an interest in her but once you did your part you scurried out of church but at least you stopped to hug me on your way out 🥰
On Saturday 9/30 my sister called me over and i walked over to her and you were standing in the doorway in front of her so i turned to you and you immediately asked me what my favorite Mexican candy was i hesitated and then i said yellow pulparindo and u replied oh so the basic one and i was like yeah i guess 😅 then we talked about kbbq and how id been to korea and we talked about the fair and it was pretty much the longest conversation we’ve ever had and i wanted it to go on forever
Yesterday i texted you about ts and tk and to my amusement and surprise you promptly replied that you were about to text me about it too👀 i had been fighting the urge to text you because i hate being the one to do it first but i couldn’t resist. when I read ur response i was giddy but also felt like next time I’ll wait a little longer
I dreamt of you again last night. We were at a cabin like place in a forest. It was some kind of retreat with the church. Both of my older siblings were also there. Your brothers were working on something in another room, i cant remember but they made a joke as i passed and it made me laugh. My brother and I went to attend some kind of art session (it was pokemon related at first and then it changed to some kind of nature painting )and you were the teacher, you were giving out directions but I went ahead and started with my drawing. You were walking around giving pointers and you got to mine and kindly gave pointers as I had clearly missed a few directions 😅somehow I ended up following you out into the hallway (it was like i was being playfully pulled out of the class by you ) and somehow we ended up talking on the floor you were wearing tight pants with a ruffled hem layer underneath them so that the hem stuck out (renaissance/pirate vibes) and i could tell they were too tight and i suggested that you change out of them but you didn’t want to, so i suggested that i at least get some ice bc your ankles looked red and you complied i quickly went to the fridge looking for an ice pack but there wasnt any. Instead i brought back two other frozen items. i hurried back and placed them on your ankles and thats when I tragically woke up
Today u texted me for the first time in a week and i responded with 3 expressive texts and u responded back with one joke like excuse me why do i bother
You haven’t properly texted in a week please keep the streak i try to find any excuse to text you so it’s good that you dont feel the need to do the same
Hadley Sullivan and Oliver Jones will kiss 12,872 times in their life together. They’ll be married 58 years, have 1,462 arguments, and make love 5,787 times. Hadley will hold Oliver’s hand when Tessa takes her last breath. Oliver will hold Hadley’s when she takes hers. And they will both hold their daughter’s hand the day she’s born and marvel at her tiny fingers and how none of it would have been possible were it not for a missed flight, a broken seat belt, and a choice to love each other every day.
Un día estaremos junto en el momento justo, ten fe 🥹
On 7/3 i had a dream about you. All i Can remember is that i was watching you play some kind of ball game with your brothers. And then it was time to go so we walked down the stairs together and then we stopped in the middle of the stairs and you grabbed my hand and seemed to be analyzing my nails.My bestie had just painted them for me so i thought you were looking at them bc of that. Then i instinctively moved my hand so that we could compare hands and then i interlocked my fingers with yours. You stood there kind of awkwardly and said i dont know what this means but I’ll allow it. I didn’t quite understand what you met and suddenly i felt embarrassed for even doing that, so i pulled away and said it doesn’t really mean anything i was just comparing hands, i turned around and walked away. Then i woke up. Later in person you briefly greeted me and wished me an enjoyable rest of my day and then squeezed my shoulder as you walked past me.
